REGRETS

Dear diary,

      i dont knw why bt this past few days i feel so crapy.. i miss home so much. i miss my life thre..bt i guess this is the price i hv to pay fr screwing up things bck home:'(..as much as i hate to admit it bt somehw being far is good fr me tho its quite tough bt here i learn to b more independent.. to really know the meaning of life and to really appreciate it..when i ws on the uni bus tht day, i started thinking about my life..I am so lucky to be born in a family like this bt yet i always complain hw sucky my life is..My dad gave me everything i want and the only thing he wanted me to do was to study..he gave me money,cars and even sent me to private tuitions bt yet i disappoint him..i spoke to a friend tht day, she told me hw hard her life was and tht sumtimes she doesnt eat cuz she wants to save money. i was surprised when she told me the amount of money she has to budget in 6 months. i was speechless cuz tht amount of money is the same amount as wat i used to pay to each of my private tutors and she only has tht much of money fr 6 months. oh god i felt so bad, i wasted a lot of money bck home when some ppl doesnt even have enough to buy a meal. I ws such a spoil brat and i regret it..Im trying to improve myself, to be a better person and most of all to gain back my father's trust. I still complain sometimes bt im starting to 'actually' study hard here,to get good grades..i hv never been tht type of person who wants to get good grades bt nw i want to get an A in all of my subs..lol its weird bt sadly it true-.-